28 June 2015

Quarter Life Crisis - Is this Really Happening?

Dear Diary, why am I so rubbish at blogging/life at the moment? I've just come home from visiting my gran for a few days where I've had time to think, possibly overthink ... By no means do I think for a minute that there aren't bigger things going on in the world.  I'm well aware and send my condolences to all those involved and caught up in the recent happenings all over the world. But ... I need a rant/catch up.


I've been reading the wonderful book 'The C Word' by Lisa Lynch. Having enjoyed the BBC film I decided I wanted to read the book. I've been reading it for a few days now and am already on chapter 30. I just can't seem to put it down. Having started a blog to cope with her cancer, I love her style of writing. I can't relate to the journey from an illness perspective but as a blogger I can relate. She also discusses many other factors about life which many people can relate to. 

I don't want to spoil the book but it's certainly made me think about life. Cue quarter life crisis right about now. Having recently changed career, I'm one lost little fish in a big ocean. Being freelance/self employed isn't all it's cracked up to be. It's either bloody hard work or there's no work. I always knew it would be tough starting out and that I would have to work a lot for free, but that doesn't make it any easier at all. It's made me question on more occasions than I care to admit 'what is the purpose of life?'. 

Now it's a lovely Sunday afternoon so I'm not going to go all deep and question life, it's just a passing thought, well recurring thought really. Besides work I also question other parts of life. Why can't Ben and I have the money to live together? Why do we have to live so far apart (2 hours!)? And so on... Of course, money is the answer. And no work means no money. 

I've also put on a little bit of extra padding the past few months. A stone and a half to be precise. I'm not quite sure where it came from but it's certainly not budging easily. Nor do I have the motivation to do much about it. I think I'm sort of hoping it's going to magically disappear back to where it came from ... wherever that may be! 

And finally, why the hell can't I get my - slightly larger than usual - arse back into gear with blogging. I seem to have this mental block at the moment that prevents me from sitting down and actually blogging. I really miss it but again, where has my motivation disappeared to?

Enough of my ramblings but hopefully this post makes some sort of sense and gives you an insight to where I may have been whilst absent from the blog. If anyone finds my motivation lying in a ditch somewhere, please return asap!

Does this ever happen to you? Or am I well and truly losing it?




18 June 2015

Mid Month Favourites

Well it's safe to say I've not been any better at blogging recently. I've lost all motivation and rather than bring you rubbish content for the sake of it, I took a blogging holiday. It's only having stepped back for a while that I actually realised how much I miss it. I'm not going to promise lots of posts or any of that malarkey but I'm going to make more of an effort than I have been. Starting with today...

 As I haven't written about any favourites for quite a while, I thought I would do a mid month favourites. 

Batiste Dry Shampoo - Floral Essences

 Every girls best friend. Batiste has been a long time favourite of mine, but I have to say I'm a massive fan of all the new scents they've been bringing out. Especially this one, which is my absolute fave at the moment! It's perfect for summer.

NARS Narsissist Eyeshadow Palette

This had been on my wishlist for rather a while before I finally got my hands on one. Ben bought it for me a couple of months ago as an anniversary present. I LOVE it! I'm definitely going to devote a whole blog post to this beauty soon.

Ben Nye Luxury Powder in Cameo  

The world went bonkers for Ben Nye's banana powder after Kim K revealed it was one of her secret weapons to the contoured look we all know and love(mostly)! I too love the powder and as a makeup artist would be lost without this in my kit. However, on a personal level, I love it too and wear the shade Cameo as I'm so pale!

The Body Shop Mango Hand Cleanse Gel

This is one of my makeup kit essentials. I hate the medicinal smelling hand sanitizers so when I found out that The Body Shop do an array of wonderful, good enough to eat scents I knew I was onto something. My personal favourite is the Mango one.

Illamasqua Hydra Veil

Now we all love a good primer but my personal favourite at the moment has to be this beauty. It's a hyped up product and for very good reason. The clue is in the name, but it's so hydrating and created the perfet base for my makeup. It also gives pretty good staying power, a definite must for me!

What do you think of my mid month favourites? Are you loving any of these products too? Or what are your go-to products at the moment?





1 June 2015

New Month, New Me ... Game On

 Okay, so at the beginning of the year, I didn't like what my body was becomming. I was eating all the wrong foods and slowly piling on the pounds. I had noticed the changes and wanted to do something, but motivation was lacking. A few months on and, well, those pounds have continued to creep on and I'm now at a point where this has to stop.

I have a wardrobes and drawers full of clothes that no longer fit me. Clothes that were comfortable a few months ago that now cling in all the wrong places or just don't fit at all. The easy option would be to go and buy new clothes that are a couple of sizes bigger, but with no money ... that's not an option. Nor would I want it to be. 

I think I have to admit I've been fooling myself for a few months. Thinking it was just a phase and I would miraculously lose it one day. Well, no. What a stupid thought. I'm not overweight but I'm not comfortable so as well as shedding a few pounds, I want to feel healthier and fitter.

I've taken a before photo purely for motivation and in a month I'm going to take another to compare. If I'm feeling good, I might be brave enough to share it. I've also made a bet with Ben that I have to lose 10 pounds. Game on. 

Have you recently started a new regime? What are you hints and tips? Would you like me to update you with my progress?